siento mucho my condolences. I know its hard to deal with the loss of a loved one. I was the pallbearer for my grandmother. I was in Roswell the weekend before she passed. My car needed new struts. I wanted to get back to college and hang with my friends that I didn't see her. April 1st I got word that she passed away, for some reason I was home with my family. I never got so show Grandma my tattoo, and when I see it, my heart breaks. I listen to "Lift me Up" by Kate Voegele as I did during the long and devastating trek to the cemetery. And I gain some solace that a random song can help me. My tattoo is on my left shoulder and reads "Where Words Fail Music Speaks." I remember that my cousin Adeni walked up to me and held my shoulder for a minute not saying anything but speaking volumes. Even though the guilt of my selfishness was eating at me, I began to rise up and pull myself together and remembered that no matter how bad I felt I still had family. And now that I'm fighting with my Uncle, I'm thinking to myself what would my Grandmother think?
I can barely type this knowing that I'm bearing my soul to you and everyone here, while listening to Lift Me Up. Someone will always know what to say, albeit in music or spoken from a friend or stranger.
alisonrosen
· 2 months ago
Andrew, that was beautifully written. Thank you so much for sharing that.
Andrew Cardona
· 2 months ago
I'm glad you think so. I just got home from a small drive listening to music I did at Grandma's funeral. I hope I helped you in someway. I think finally writing it down and seeing it helped me deal with it. I'm still afraid to be selfish, which I guess is why I'm selfless lately.
Eric Ovalle
· 2 months ago
Alison, I hope in writing and experiencing this you find yourself more at peace.
A good friend of mine was in a fatal accident on my birthday, and I am reminded each year that as I turn older, he will remain young forever. We were going to collaborate on a book, and it would have been the best "job" I'd ever have. If anything, I am inspired to have more fun and joke around so that I will not consider a life unlived.
I hope your wit and humor lift your spirits the way you lift others'.
Course there's always Pop Rocks.
TrappDog
· 2 months ago
I guess it never really leaves us. I got my first heavy dose of reality when my mom died of cancer when I was 12. I don't suppose I ever really recovered, but it's different when you're that young. Survival is the thing. There's too much to do to focus on the sadness.
Then, when you're older, a loss affects you more profoundly. I've been in a similar place, not wanting to embrace life. I guess what has saved me has been the belief that the spirit doesn't die, and also the knowledge that other people have had it worse. I know a couple who lost a young child. How can I let myself give up, when they don't?
Maybe if there is a purpose in life, if we're earning our way, so to speak, then the biggest challenge is to endure the sadness of loss. It takes a great capacity for love, to feel such loss. Maybe to pick ourselves up and love again, despite the risk, is the greatest expression of faith.
At times like this, it's good to remind ourselves that while we can, we must let our light shine, and share that with the world. On December 25th, we celebrate the birthday of one who taught about such things, and inspires us to embrace life with a spirit of joy. Yes, that's right. Ted.
Oh yeah, and Jesus of Nazareth.
Ted_Goodlove
· 2 months ago
Well Alison you have touched me once again through your writing....if no one told you today, you are one of the best writers hands down! Although I love to joke around with you and your blog friends, on occasion even I will open up! I know I've written about the loss of my daughter to illness before...it's amazing to think she would have been 12 now. That whole deal you wrote about pain sneaking up on you....yeah it happens! Her birth and death were both in October so this is the month that I'd like to skip every year.....is Christmas here yet!?!?!?
The real me sends you a hug and thanks you for being you.......Ted B. Goodlove slaps you on the ass and says, "Get back in the game Rosen!"
alisonrosen
· 2 months ago
You guys have both put tears in my eyes and made me laugh with your comments tonight. Thank you so much.
boinkity
· 2 months ago
After a couple days, I am still not sure how to respond to this post that Alison has shared with us. It touches the heart, and forces one to think about their own experiences. Alas, I don't have the courage as some of you. I can't share what has happened to me because it is so personal to me. There was sadness, and guilt, and confused feelings that I experienced. Is this all part of the human experience? Does everyone have to deal with these difficult moments to gain better understanding of self? All I am willing to share is that I know the person that I lost loved me, and wouldn't want me to feel the emotions that I did feel. When I was able to realize that, it really helped me look at life from the perspective that goodness can come from tragedy if one makes the effort.
Ted_Goodlove
· 2 months ago
Damn buddy, I tried like 5 times to reply to your post and can't find the right words....I just don't express myself in writing very well.....but if we were at the RosenFan Club luncheon, I'd buy us all a few rounds to drown our sorrows.
In the meantime, I glanced to the right of the screen and re-read the farts thread.
boinkity
· 2 months ago
I know! Wassup with all the sad posts!?!? You made Alison cry!! You fat meanie head! It's cool though. One can never laugh if they don't know what it means to cry. I wonder if someone famous said that, or if I just made that up in my head? I'll never know. I don't know any cool sayings. :p
I'd rather you buy drinks so we can laugh a lot than for the sorrows dude!
Ted_Goodlove
· 2 months ago
I bet Alison would put a limit on drinks allowed.....probably only let Joe have Shirley Temples as well! We will have to sneak some juice into the event Boink!
Speaking of drinks.....I prefer Dos Equis w/Lime (Green Bottle)
Alison can you punish Boink for calling me a "fat meanie head!"
boinkity
· 2 months ago
but you made Alison cry! And Joe is probably crying too cuz he knows that he never gets anything but Shirley Temples!
Anonymous
· 2 months ago
"I was expecting your usual practice of posting some funny observation of the current events. Nevertheless, I wish you well....."
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCbXTIq4dTU Link to the vid.
I can barely type this knowing that I'm bearing my soul to you and everyone here, while listening to Lift Me Up. Someone will always know what to say, albeit in music or spoken from a friend or stranger.
A good friend of mine was in a fatal accident on my birthday, and I am reminded each year that as I turn older, he will remain young forever. We were going to collaborate on a book, and it would have been the best "job" I'd ever have. If anything, I am inspired to have more fun and joke around so that I will not consider a life unlived.
I hope your wit and humor lift your spirits the way you lift others'.
Course there's always Pop Rocks.
Then, when you're older, a loss affects you more profoundly. I've been in a similar place, not wanting to embrace life. I guess what has saved me has been the belief that the spirit doesn't die, and also the knowledge that other people have had it worse. I know a couple who lost a young child. How can I let myself give up, when they don't?
Maybe if there is a purpose in life, if we're earning our way, so to speak, then the biggest challenge is to endure the sadness of loss. It takes a great capacity for love, to feel such loss. Maybe to pick ourselves up and love again, despite the risk, is the greatest expression of faith.
At times like this, it's good to remind ourselves that while we can, we must let our light shine, and share that with the world. On December 25th, we celebrate the birthday of one who taught about such things, and inspires us to embrace life with a spirit of joy. Yes, that's right. Ted.
Oh yeah, and Jesus of Nazareth.
The real me sends you a hug and thanks you for being you.......Ted B. Goodlove slaps you on the ass and says, "Get back in the game Rosen!"
In the meantime, I glanced to the right of the screen and re-read the farts thread.
I'd rather you buy drinks so we can laugh a lot than for the sorrows dude!
Speaking of drinks.....I prefer Dos Equis w/Lime (Green Bottle)
Alison can you punish Boink for calling me a "fat meanie head!"